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Have you or a loved one been diagnosed with Nicoliosis????

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Nicole is an expert space cadet; she specializes in sitting, staring at a wall and drooling, off in another world missing important information that she'll later be kicking herself for being the last to know. 

Nicole isn't exactly an expert on socializing--she's shy, awkward, easily flustered, and when she DOES speak, a good 90% of the stuff that comes out of her mouth leaves others scratching their heads wondering the HECK they just heard.

Nicole is a MASSIVE worrywart; her anxiety prevents her from judging the severity of situations accurately, to the point where even the SIMPLEST of activities turn her into a shivering, shaking mess as she contemplates every bad outcome that could POSSIBLY occur, and I mean EVERYTHING. Her fears range from: "I'm probably going to say something stupid and ruin everything" to "oh shit my foot fell asleep oH NO I'M DYING THEY'RE GONNA HAVE TO AMPUTATE IT WHAT IF I DON'T GET TO THE PHONE FAST ENOUGH BECAUSE MY FOOT IS ASLEEP WHAT IF I TRIP DOWN THE STAIRS AND SPILL ALL THE MACARONI AND DIE AT THE BOTTOM OF THE STAIRS." to "oh hey cool my friends are inviting me to the amusement park wHAT IF A METEOR STRIKES AND KILLS EVERYONE IN THE AMUSEMENT PARK AND I STILL HAVE TO GET MY FOOT AMPUTATED BUT THE METEOR MAKES ME SPILL THE MACARONI AND CHEESE AND I DIE AT THE BOTTOM OF THE STAIRS." 

Nicole gets anxiety over her OWN anxiety, fearful that even her mere worrying will be enough to drive away others she cares about deeply. As a result, she struggles to open up to others, often times feeling as though her inner demons and insecurities are "annoying" to others and not worth mentioning. She'd much rather be an ear to listen rather than ask others for help, and will usually keep quiet about personal matters unless absolutely necessary.

In large friend circles, Nicole rarely ever takes the lead and is much more comfortable staying quiet and just listening and following along, occasionally interjecting with jokes and puns. She gets extremely timid to speak much in groups, but doesn't mind hanging out with two or three close friends at a time. She often will not participate in games or hands-on activities, especially when they're competitive, as she's very easily embarrassed and hates the feeling of being spectated.

Nicole is a pacifist; at least, that sounds way better than "absolute coward". She goes out of her way to see the good in everyone, often allowing warning signs and personal jabs to roll off, convinced that she's probably just overthinking things as usual. This makes her an easy target for aggressors, as she will usually step down and accept false blame just to avoid any further confrontation or bad blood with others. She does try to stick up for herself now and again, but even that makes her feel guilty, and for the most part she will stay quiet and just try to avoid any further disputes.

Nicole is extremely hard on herself and is often too stubborn to forgive herself for mistakes and wrongdoings, convinced that she should have known, or handled things better, even in situations where she couldn't have possibly known or prepared for. She consistently berates her reflection with name-calling and harsh words, dismissing her own insecurities and flaws as 'non-important' to instead focus her time and energy on others' needs. Over time, this reflection manifested itself into the very creature she saw herself as--a colorless, lifeless ghost with no redeeming qualities, a ghost that could only be seen and heard by Nicole herself. It was the voice in the back of her head, at all times, saying "you'd better not slip up again" "they're better off without you" "you're so worthless, I don't even think you tried at all." Although this entity was essentially a flightless, monstrous version of herself, Nicole came to know it as 'Mirror'. 

 Mirror became a scapegoat for all of Nicole's slip-ups and mistakes; she would consistently vilify her and disown all of her negative actions as Mirror's doing, instead of accepting the fact that both her strengths and weaknesses are a natural part of her and should be accepted equally. This constant aggression towards her mistakes and flaws made her unable to truly be happy or grow, thus stunting her growth and keeping her permanently trapped as a tiny dragon. The more verbal abuse and ridicule Mirror suffered, the harsher she would become, and the stronger she would grow.

Nicole will only truly grow into a full, adult dragon once she learns to love and accept herself for who she really is. Until then--she's an angsty, vertically-challenged ball of anxiety who lives a day-to-day life being haunted by a creepy reflection with sharp, unclipped toenails. 

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Character/Artwork © Anisopterror

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